Saturday, February 13, 2010

16 weeks.

Photobucket{I am not going to lie, I wanted to cry when I saw this picture. Not because I am emotional or so happy about the belly this little one has given me, but because I should have lost 50 more lbs. before getting prego.}

4 whole months, just in case you don't feel like doing the math. Baby is about 4 1/2 inches long, head to rump. That is amazing!

16 weeks of pure hell. Pardon the expressive language. This pregnancy has been far harder than the previous one. I had morning sickness for 10 whole weeks. With Kroten it was only 5 very long weeks. But 10 weeks?!? IT HAS BEEN HORRIBLE. Then, the second, and I am not kidding, the second, I was feeling better, I got a NASTY head cold. This has lasted two weeks. I couldn't breath, eat, sleep or move. I have been miserable, and then the heart burn, UGH the heart burn. Not to mention, on top of all this... I work night shift. UGH! I am blaming ALL of this, the extended morning sickness, the nasty cold the horrible canker sores, ALL of it on working night shift. But I THINK, there is a light at the end of this LONG never ending tunnel. I am starting to feel better. I have a little more energy, and I am FINALLY feeling like I am not pregnant (the perk of the 2ND trimester) except for the fact that I feel fat.

But then... I was watching a baby story (pathetic I know) and this woman had it FAR worse than I do. And then she had her baby and said, it was all worth it to get this little baby here. And now she gets to hold her baby, no more sickness, no more heart burn, no more cankles, no more nasty head cold, and no more yucky night shifts, just a baby and a new member to the family.

I am trying to stay positive. I am trying to remind myself that, I have to get fatter, for the baby; I have to work night shifts, for my family; I have to have morning sickness, for the placenta; I have to have heart burn so the baby will have lots of red hair like Kroten ;). I have to do this, for myself, for my family and for my heavenly father.

I am so happy, I am so blessed, and I need to remember that.

9 comments:

Katie said...

You are definitely blessed with a good attitude too!! Way to be tough, mama! (Crossing my fingers for lots of red hair for baby #2! Kroten was the cutest newborn EVER! And getting cuter everyday : )

Tara Barros said...

I like your positive thoughts... I can understand how hard it is going to work and everything else while being pregnant. By the way, I think you look so great!

Amanda said...

Were you watching the Baby Story episode where the woman had some back problem that gave her insane pain through the whole pregnancy? Because I was watching that and thinking how great I had it for all my pregnancies.

Anyway, it can be hard to see the good things amidst all the bad, but you seem to have a good perspective. I'm glad you're feeling better. And you look great for being 16 weeks!

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Deidra Smith said...

Hang in there, I know it's tough ( i never want to be pregnant again!), but a I agree it's worth it. Sounds like you have a pretty good attitude to me:)

Deidra Smith said...

p.s. I don't know whay you don't like the pic-it's a great pic. I think you look so cute prego!

BECKY said...

I'm thinking girl. :) Good luck with everything... we'll probably do something similar... have the baby in the 'dining room' or something.

Ging said...

Lovely thoughts. Truly lovely.

Rob and Steph Puterbaugh said...

Finally, another pregnant woman who admits that being pregnant isn't all that's cracked up to be. I thought it would be so easy... i mean no periods for 9 months and getting a cute little baby in the end...and for me that's about the only positives i've had while being pregnant. I had morning sickness my whole 1st trimester, a PUPPS rash my 2nd trimester, and backaches and wierd pains in my back, butt, and hips in my 3rd trimester. I can't wait to deliver my little baby (which i'm very excited to see by the way). Here's to you for being truthful and positive!