What are you grateful for?

I REALLY really need to have more graditude in my life (see previous post for details.) So... from November 1st till Thanksgiving I will be posting every night what I am grateful for.

You should all join me!!

I know... I know.

I am really putting alot out here for you all to read, I hope this doesn't disturb your notion that I am a perfect home-maker. BAHAHAHAHA! Because(in all sarcasm) you all know that I am perfect.

I am not going to lie, having two kids is the hardest thing I have ever done! Having two kids makes having one kid look like a walk in the park, while eating cake, on a sunny day with the most comfy shoes you've ever worn. Seriously, I am struggling.

It seems that with each child the laundry quadruples... how is that possible. And you all know I was struggling in this area before she came along.

I feel compleatly overwhelmed by life!! This is the first time in my life that I have actually wished with all seriousness that I could run away. It sounds HORRIBLE right now, but at the time it sounded like a logical answer to me.

There are times when the house is a disaster, the dishes are piled so high you can't find a clean spoon to eat with, the laundry is scattered in every room, the sewing machine is out and begging me to finish just one project, I am back logged on blogging, the bathroom stinks, dinner isn't even a thought and I need a shower... the kids will have just barely gone down for a nap and that gives me a good solid two hours of time and I litterally FEEL like I cannot do a thing because they will wake up soon. Is that for real... I have two hours and nothing gets done. I just feel like I cannot do anything because there are so many other things to do! SO nothing gets done?? Does that make sense? Not to me. Does anyone else feel that way?

The other day, I was trying to make dinner and then I remembered the costumes weren't done and then there was no place to cut a tomato on the counter and kem was crying and life just caught up to me and I started crying. Why can I not even cut a tomato without feeling overwhelmed??

One more for ya... One night K man woke up at midnight and started crying, so Jared went to comfort him. He started throwing a fit and would not go back to bed, he wouldn't get in bed with us... NOTHING. He was up till 5:30. Guess who else didn't sleep that night... yep, yours truely.

Just a few days later He was being a pill, so I decided we all needed a change of scenery. So I packed up the kids and got myself dressed and we went for a walk, and k man rode his bike. K man decided half way through and a half mile in that he didn't want to ride, he didn't want to walk, he didn't want ice cream, he didn't want to go home... NOTHING. So I left his bike there and carried this screaming, thrashing two year old home while pushing kem in the stroller. It must have looked to passers by that I was kidnapping him. My arms are so sore. I seriously felt like hurting him that day. TWO YEAR OLDS ARE HORRIBLE.

I am not even going to go into the weight loss thing, that is a whole nother demension.

I am so overwhelmed, I cannot even explain it. I cry every day. I am so tired right now, but I don't want to go to bed because that means that when I wake up I have to start it all over again. Seriously... does anyone els feel this way???

to make this long story even longer...

I have been thinking about what to change. I know the answer and that is the HARDEST part. I know what I need to do. I need to read my scriptures, pray more often and be more grateful. It just seems to easy. Is that answer going to make me loose 80 lbs? Is praying going to clean my house and make dinner is it going to burn calories? Is it going to play with a two year old? It seems so easy. And then today I thought about how Moses told the poeple to look and live and that was just far too easy for them so they died. OK OK... I know what I need to do. THEN... I asked Jared for a blessing and he told me that I needed to be more grateful for the things that I do have. AND THEN... I taught the lesson in Young Women's today at church and guess what it was on... OPTIMISM. Really??? And being grateful. Ok... OK.... OK.

So I am going to be more grateful, just iin time for thanksgiving... From november 1st till thanksgiving, I will write what I am grateful for here on the blog. You should join me.

lets see if it burns calories.

BZZZZZ

It is rare that you get to post about a holiday on the holiday itself. We celebrated haloween yesterday because today is sunday and to be honest, I am glad it is over. It was a fun day though, we went trick or treating at the market, went to the farm to get more pumpkins and feed the goats. We had our church trunk or treat and then Jared and I went to a haloween party with out the kids (yes we wore out bee costumes.) It was a fun day. Now I need to brainstorm how to get that C-A-N-D-Y out of this house!

Yes, yes... we dressed up together. And yes, my husband is a trooper! People stopped us everywhere to tell us how cute we were, and add in funny comments like, your beeeutiful and look its the whole hive. We even got asked THREE TIMES if strangers could take our picture!


Seriously he is the cutest!

She was like the queen bee all day in her little fur coat.

I love my little bees. Oh they are so cute. I am glad I will get to remember them like this (all cute and cuddly) when I am old and not like they really are, terrible little monsters!! lol.

Tomorrow..

Tomorrow is the day!

Tomorrow I start.

Tomorrow I will do it.

Tomorrow nothing can stop me.

Tomorrow the accomplishing of  my goal will begin. 

Tomorrow I will not fail.

Tomorrow I will do it!

Tomorrow I WILL WORK OUT!!

I tell you because I need some accountability.

Kemiry K, your three months old today.

Life has been interesting this last month. I have been kinda off my rocker as to getting things balanced. I am pretty sure it is because I feel like it should all be back to normal and that everything should get done. I just need to slow down and remember that I have two kids and one of them is brand new. It is going to be ok. 

But kem, she is beautiful. She gets prettier every day. Her eye is still yucky. She is starting to giggle a little bit and we love her so much. K man desperately wants her to play with him, unfortunately by the time she can, he will want her to go away. 

At three months old you...

react when we tickle your ribs

smile big when we get really excited

sit front facing in the front pack

talking and cooing all the time

suck on your hands

pooping a lot

get your toe nails painted by daddy

cry yourself to sleep

are cute as a bug.

We still love our kem kem. our 90 day trial is up, I think we will keep her. lol

I know you are jealous...

1. that you aren't making this face.
2. that you didn't buy this jacket before I did.
3. that your hair can't go this big.
4. that you didn't get to attend this rad 80's party like me.

We were eating dinner and I was all decked out and Kman couldn't stop staring at me. Then out of the blue he says (and this is a direct quote) "mommy look pretty. mommy look pretty on the hair." Oh sweet boy... you have no idea what you are talking about. I was impressed that he even noticed something was different.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LEAANNE.
I did this for you!


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Finally caught on film...

So kem is one hard baby to please. I was dissapointed when she didn't (like her big brother) smile at 4 weeks. Around 8 weeks, you could get her to smile, but you had to work it, and even then you couldn't blink, cause you would miss it.

But just this week, she started smiling more and more.

Big happy smile, big rosy dimples and her gleaming eyes. I LOVE IT. And we FINALLY caught a little of it on film...



couldn't you just eat her up?

Picking our munkins.

I love love love fall. LOVE it!! Pumpkins, Halloween, leaves, crisp cold air, thanksgiving, rain. I love it.

To kick off fall, we went to Lone Pine Farm and picked out our munkins. K man has been talking about going to get our munkins all weekend. It was a beautiful evening with an awesome sunset. Did I say that I love fall (I don't want to forget that.) We couldn't have asked for a better pumpkin picking experience.


K man on the hunt for the perfect pumpkin...



My little pumpkins sitting by some pumpkins.



I think k man liked the cart more than the pumpkins... oh well...








The sunset was beautiful. It was an perfect evening.



Isn't she purty??