It has been two years since I last could, in good confidence, call myself a blogger. And even then it was beginging to be spotty at best.
I look back at my blog and cherish the things that I was able to capture. I am extreamly saddened that the last two year is not recoreded. I swear that I did not fall off the earth. I also will deny tooth and nail that I was a blogger purely because it was what was cool or expected of good stay at home moms or that I was doing what was "trendy" at the time. I truely cherish the things that I recorded.
So what happened in My life that was so important that made me become a horrible, untrendy mom, who doesnt blog?
2 years ago, this month, we made a huge change for our family. Jared and I switched roles. I went back to work! I was also trying to keep up on my photography business. I was busier than ever. I was averageing 3 to 5 photoshoots a week, working evening shift 32 hours per week, cooking dinners, playing with my children, takling kindergarten japanese immersion homework (it was harder than it sounds) serving in the stake relief society and ocassionaly sleeping. Hence why blogging sadly and very rapidly took a back seat.
We began saying things like, "I cant wait til life slows down."
That is when it got worse... We decided to move in with my parents for ONE year to save money to buy a house. One year came and went, and turned into 16 months. Then, just when I was ready to buy a house... Jared was offered a job at an appartment complex including free rent. I know your asking yourself the same things I was... "what about my house?" "How can he work and I work?" "What about my House?" I still ask myself those question daily. Good news is, we love our appartment and our savings account. I now find comfort in repeating to myself daily "I'll go where you want me to go dear Lord."
Speaking of going where the lord wants me to go... in the midst of all this chaos, I was applying to a big company, I thought I was a shoe in for this perfect job. It was MONTHS of prayer and fasting and worrying/crying and interviews. Needless to say, I did not end up at the job. Lots of reasons why, but mostly, I am confident, that it is not where the Lord wanted me to go. however, during that time, I did get a promotion at work. This meant a pay raise and 40 hours a week.
HA! Just when you think things can't get busier...
...A month after my promotion, The Bishop came to my house to inform me that the lord wants me to be the Young Womens President. OYE VEY! THEN... yes, there is a then, the week I got set apart, they called Jared into the elders quorum presidency.
So that is where we are now. I work...a ton. Jared Works a lot. The kids are both in school full time. I average, MAYBE one photoshoot every other week. I dont sew, my house is constantly a mess, Jared does laundry, its a miracle if I work out and I pray every single day that Heavenly Father will guide me to the things that really need to get done.
Its a crazy, turned upside down, not in my five year plan, life. We are slowly, very slowly, finding ways to make it work and relying heavily on the Lord.
It is bitter sweet, but I have adopted this quote from Ezra Taft Benson to be my new motto... "When we put God first, all other things fall into their proper place or drop out of our lives."